I've been making my own kind of historiography, my own kind of archaeology. I've been compiling all the songs that I've associated with you over the years. I already told you: I don't associate songs with anybody else. I associate songs with feelings, with places, with thoughts, with moods, with moments. Those feelings, places, thoughts, moods, and moments may be themselves associated with people. But those songs never get to become associated with them. It's always something like "Oh, this song reminds me of when I was in X place, and I was with Y person in that place". But the song does not sound like or to Y. With you it has always been different. For me, some songs sound like you. Others definitely sound like a moment in life where I was going through something related to you. But in those cases, those songs still mean you. To me you are music. That has always been the case. Well... the historiography/archaeology project I've been engaging in has consisted of remembering, finding, rediscovering all those songs that, to me, mean you. It's surprising how many songs there are. I've also tried to organise them chronologically in relation to the moment in time (in life) in which I first stated associating them with you. That bit is difficult since I don't fully remember when this or that song started to mean you. I hope I get the chance to share this playlist with you someday. I think some of the songs may come as a bit of a surprise given how they are linked to not-so-nice feelings.

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